genes suck!

Okay I now know that no one reads my sad little dietribs, so here it gose. I am eighteen years old, I'm crazy, overly animated, I have a huge crush on my best friend from high school, and I lac the guts to just tell him out right. So instead I throw my self in to a number of exstremly superfital sexual relations, because I know that if I toke the chance I might actually happy. I just can't rap my head around that concept, I need to bitch. What's worse is that I'm super intellegent. So I'm capable of rationalizing every thing I do. Thats me in a nut shell, and since no one is going to read this crap I can say every thing I really feel ( not that I don't already, every one who really knows me knows that I am the definition of an extrivert. In other words I have a problume with keeping my mouth shut and my personality quite.) If anyone should have the misfortune of reading all this, you are a brave soul message me sometime.